Sunday, July 24, 2011

what makes me tick?

so i have these little things that some people might call "obsessions" that may be so, but i still love them all the same.
the first i already talked about in a previous post. Alice. that is just such a fantastic movie! that and the deeper meaning behind it is what i really love. Tim Burton did such a great job capturing each and every character and recreating the "return to wonderland" (aka underland), he and Johnny Depp are just so amazing together that words cannot explain it. while i do love ALL of Burton's movies, Alice in Wonderland has got to be my favorite of them all.
next is the ultimate sport of soccer. i have played on teams with my twin sister ever since we were 5 years old and it is the very best thing i have ever done. i tried basketball and softball as a kid but they were never the same thing. i also did the whole swim team in high school sophomore year via my parentals request, but, even though i kind of liked it and  probably would have stuck with it, that ended the first practice junior year when i injured my shoulder. nothing has ever given me the same rush as i get on the pitch though. i have always played right wing defense while my sister played left. coaches would tell us that we were their secret weapon because we would work so well together without saying a word to the other, it just happened. no other position is the same. on defense you get the responsibility of last attack and you have to be on your toes constantly to keep the pressure off the goal. there's such an adrenaline rush that i get knowing that and it makes me want to push and try harder. just don't make me mad on the field or you will most definitely regret it. that's a promise.
third comes music. there is always a song for everything. a broken heart, a wonderful day, and everything in between. you can't go wrong with any of it. well...maybe classical. i really can't stand  that stuff. but really, i don't know what i would do if i didn't have my zune. probably die.
i am also highly fascinated by design. i suppose that is a good thing considering the fact of i am majoring in Interior Design and Marketing at Utah State University. i absolutely love it! i was never planning on going into this field either, which just makes it all the better. it all started my junior year in high school when  i took Interior Design as an elective class because i thought it would be an 'easy A' (great movie by the way). i was wrong. it was not easy. it was challenging and inspiring and i absolutely fell in love with it. i am not a very conceited person, but i will admit to being good at what i do. i think that part of that comes from the fact that i love to do it so much, and if it is then so be it. i would rather do something i love than something i hate for the rest of my life and by George i am going to do it!
fifth, i am obsessed with vintage. i always say i was born in the wrong time era and i believe it sometimes. while i do love very contemporary things, vintage is still my favorite. there's just something in the simplicity of the times then that we don't have now. the style, the people, the cars, the fashion, the cities,  it all fascinates me and i just can't get enough of it! i am determined to, one day, own some type of vintage car (ideal would be a '65 mustang, but i'll take whatever i can get and drive it all the time). it will happen.
along with vintage is my FAVORITE so-called obsession. Marilyn Monroe. 
i. love. her. my apartment has gigantic, framed pictures of her all around it and i am not ashamed of that fact. some say she was a sex icon, and she was indeed, but it is NOT because of her actions. it was because of her image. society took what she looked like and made her into the icon everyone knew. i could go on and on about all of the facts i know from date/death (june 1 1926-august 5 1962) to her real name (Norma Jean) and why she changed it. i have been to her grave two times and you better believe i plan to visit her a lot more in LA. she was a great actress with inspiring words, and definitely not who everyone thought she was. i will forever look up to Ms Monroe for who she made herself despite what societal views were. she was and will always be great. say anything bad about her and you can talk to me, i will defend her. trust me.

we need these little "obsessions" in our lives, these are just my biggest ones. i have many more, these are just the biggest influences in my life. they will never leave me.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

It's for you

I was talking to my momma today while I was home for a little while and our choice of topic made me realize this: Your life is yours. No one can tell you who you were, who you are, or who you'll be. No one can tell you what you will or will not do. No one can tell you that. No one except you. 

You make your decisions, you make your mood, everything in your life is up to you. Granted things happen for a reason, that's just how it is, things are planned before you know it. Try and alter that plan and God laughs. However, you choose your reaction towards what is thrown your way. You can be happy, sad, depressed, overjoyed, pretty much anything in the book, it's just up to you for which one you choose.
My life has not been an easy one, a few of you know that. I've had some pretty tough trials from day one-literally. Even though I don't remember a lot of the things from my life because they happened when I was little, I know the effects they have had on my life as of today. How do I take it? 
Positively.
It's made me stronger, happier, and a better person. Certain people left my life for good and I'm happy that they did because better people replaced them for good. And for that, I am grateful. 
I choose to be happy, no one chooses it for me. I look at the bright side of things, no one points them out.
My life is mine. Mine to live and mine to react to.
No one is going to tell me different.
I won't lose my muchness.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Four letter word


Liar.

It's really great to find out who you are. Seriously. You think that you know someone and that they aren't the type of person  to lie to you about something so simple, or blow you off with an excuse, then BOOM. It happens.
Really guys? I mean it takes less time to say "I don't want  to go"  or "That doesn't seem like my kind of thing" or "I don't want to feel out of place" (aka the truth) than it does to make up a lie about why you can't or might not be able to do something or go somewhere such as "I work and no one will switch me because of this and this and this reason". I promise it will save you breathing time too.
The other thing about liars? If you don't want someone to find out your real plans, don't put them out for said person to see. That's not even smart. Then you have to come up with some other lie about why you ended up doing something  else instead of the original thing you were asked to do in the first place.


Yes I am aware that this particular post might seem whiny or complanitory and what not, but this is my blog and i'll say what I like, if you don't like it, don't read it. 'Nuff said.

But really. 
Nobody likes a liar.